tawejea

Almost through this evil illness! Gosh! It started last tuesday evening. Just a tickle in the back of my throat. Progressed to a head cold for the rest of the week. By friday I thought I was better, so I went to work and afterwards I went to the cottage I was planning on going to.

Bad idea. Come Saturday night, the realy symptoms started and by Sunday morning I was death. Sore throat, stuffy nose, head throbbing. I get home at 3pm and I feel completely stoned. It got so bad I asked me parents to come and get me. I have a temp of 101.7! I haven't had a fever like that since...... middle school maybe? The kind where all you want to feel is the sweet coolness of a damp cloth on your forehead.

Spent the last couple of days recovering and now I am finally going back to work. I am going to be so poor this paycheck. Thank goodness I just did groceries.

The flu sucks.

Yes yes I know, I called out today. I really shouldn't have, I could definately use the money. But when my alarm went off at half five... I just couldn't do it. I spent the night tossing, and the idea of function on less then 4 hours sleep just wasn't feasable.

Saturday was suppose to be my day off but with my internet down I couldn't get done what needed to be done. Which was namely updating my resume and working on applying for my masters. I really don't like my job. However since I've really done nothing in the past couple of weeks about getting a new one, i've had no real reason to complain. It is my fault I'm still there. Today I am going to try to make some strides towards getting out of there.

Its gotten to the point where my Dad took me aside and told me I need to get out of there. He says I'm way too smart to be there. I suppose he's right, not to put down the others who work there. We all have our reasons. For a retail job, it makes the most and I get benefits.

But moving forward I am going to approach this is steps. Looking towards the mission as a whole has been so daunting, i've been putting it off. Today is for updating the resume, with the edits recommended by my peoples. And messaging the proffs needed to give references for my masters.

Wish me luck.

For weeks, even months I have felt so drained that I wanted nothing more then to be by myself. I would crave a day alone, just to do whatever I wanted to do. I guess I never had a chance to refuel in this way whilst I lived with someone, not that I can blame her. She had no idea of my random hermit ways. I didnt either really, it took months of restlessness for me to figure out why I was so spent.

Now after less then two months, I have recharged enough that I find myself sitting on my couch actually actively wishing I had something to do today, that was OUTSIDE the house. I am itching to hang out with PEOPLE! I went out for the first time in eons last weekend and am actually excited to do it again this weekend!

Maybe its the start of being normal again. Life is kinda getting good.

I've noticed that the longer you don't write an entry the tougher it is to sit down and write one. Lordy.

Whats been going on? Well let me see. I've been working on-stop. I seem to be a rut, in that when I am working I don't have the time to apply to new jobs, and when I have days off, its the last things I want to do. I think I will have to start dedicating a certain amount of time per week.

So things that are new. I went to the CNE with my mother, unfortunately my sister could not make it :( However, in tribute we did all the things which have become ritual at the CNE. Including in no particular order --> the super dogs, corn dogs, shopping, cow and more food. I got some nice indian style pillows for my couch and bed.

The other new thing is that I applied for my UofT course, so now if I pass that I have a chance at actually getting into my masters program. Hopefully, lets all cross our fingers shall we?

And finally we went to the Jelsma Family Picnic in Simcoe... well actually more like Vittoria. This is the cap of summer, in my mind it means summer is officially over, but technically it will be on the 21st of September. This day always starts with my sister and I making our mother awkward by play fighting, eating Celery bread at the Erie Beach Hotel, and then we finally descend on my Aunt Esther and Uncle Gregs house. They live in a Log Cabin in the middle of a field. Once there we eat, chat and all around catch up. The main part of the evening meal consists of the corn. So fresh and delicious. Capping off the evening is fireworks. Always awesome. However this year my cousin Dylan decided to take us on a ride in his flat back jeep. Enjoy this clip.

I'm really tired. Not just from todays work, but in general. I can see it in my face, and its making me look old. I feel old compared to those at work. I just want that confidence back that I used to have in my body image. Where I felt good in an outfit as opposed to wearing something that disguises.

Tonight will be filled with Pasta, True Blood and Warcraft.

Hoorah!

So I called the Registrar today, and I was told that yeah... its totally easy to apply for courses. So tomorrow, i'm foregoing my sleep-in (sigh) to go to UofT and register for a French class, so that I can apply for my Masters. Oh lordy I hope this works. Or in Michelles case, oh Goddess. I really didn't see myself in school this year but it makes me giddy, and Brock said he would help me with the Frenchiness!

Off to do groceries. Hopefully this will all work itself out. Also must keep looking for new jobs. Dire!!!

Yesterday was the ideal lazy day. I woke up, went to work got cut at 11am and so by the time I got home it would have been when I woke up normally. I called my mother and she decided it would be a good time I come over with the box of DVDs I had been keeping at her place. Included the globe I bought off of my sister.

So I unpacked that and started with hanging posters (I need sticky stuff), and all around putting more finishing touches on my place. I had plans with Bobo for dinner so I read fanfiction about Eric Northman until she called and we decided to meet at Yonge and Eglinton.

We had an awesome Dinner, including a very amusing waiter who was a combination of Victor Krum, Arnie and an another Russian tough guy that I can't quite remember. We even had Bellini's! Afterwards we walked back to my place and I gave her the tour. She enjoyed the dress up box and random African instruments I have. Videos may be to come.

Since I told her I needed a television she said I could have her old one. Yay! Her and her boyfriend Ken are on their way over right now with the TV because they are on their way to a Phish concert in Buffalo. Annnd to cap off two days off I am going to see Ameeta today and hang out for a bit.

I think I'll be posting in here a lot more from now on. I'm going to try this new thing where I vent to no one but myself and this shall be my vessel. Maybe Eric will listen? Either way, you shall be seeing more of me. Granted most of the entries will be private and for my eyes only, but some things will gleen through in my attempt to find myself again. To wash away the bad things of 2009.

I've always had a theory that even years are awesome and Odd years are full of change, some for good and some for the bad. The odd year is almost done, there have definately been some changes and hopefully a bunch more to come that will make 2010 more awesome.

Tawejea

So this evening Renee and I redid the living room. We put up the dining room table, and since we didn't have a screw driver I used a butter knife to make our Ikea table. I rock. It looks really nice in here now. I also made a plant pot thingy for outside the door. Its more homey now.

So. I haven't updated in a while. Lemme see, well the couch finally came. The Brick is so shitty that after a month of waiting we decided to just get a refund and go with Ikea. They delivered like the next day. Although it was quite tricky to get it into the basement. The movers were not originally going to bring it into the basement but after some careful batting of the eyes they decided to give it a try. One was kinda cute with spaces and tattoos. My favourite.

So tonight is the night i've been waiting for. Me sitting in my own apartment, cable and internet in full effect, and sitting on my own couch. Renee is closing tonight so I have the whole place to myself until at least 10:30pm. I'm watching CSI but I'm really waiting for Greys.

I went to go see Coraline with Lola and her sister, I had a really good time even though I was late. Curse you forgetfulness! I got a lot of postcards recently: 1) Aisha from Osaka, Japan 2) Cooper from Thailand and 3) Ameeta from London, England.

I've been going to the gym quite a bit lately, today I only did weights cause my stomach wasn't up to the cardio (hangover hehe). Watching the Biggest Loser has really motivated me. I'm pretty sure Bob the Trainer is gay but since I cannot find any internet confirmation, I will keep the dream alive. But aside from that I am kinda getting addicted to that burning sensation from the last couple of reps.

I had a lot of extra apples around the house. So I decided to make something with it. I mixed apples with sugar and margarine, and fried them in a pan. Then when they were nice and tender, I mixed in two packages of dry oatmeal (maple and brown sugar flavoured). Its pretty awesome.

I love cleaning. I just cleaned my apartment and its all spring time fresh. I just wish the stupid couch would arrive, they delayed it until the 15th. What company does that? Gahh

Well I haven't been having much luck with companies lately. I shall recount the Rogers story. We signed up for Internet and Cable. He was suppose to come on the Monday, he did but only to inform me after 4 minutes of creepily walking around that the connection wasn't good enough and he could have to come back. So I called to make a new appointment but informed them that I could be out of town due to a Funeral and that my roommate would be here.

I enter the door having just come home from Simcoe to find my Renee and the landlord fighting with the same creepy dude. He says that he couldn't do anything without me there (lie #1), so I say 'Hey I'm here, you can do whatever now". Then he informs me that he cancelled the call and we have to reschule again. So I call Rogers. I was a little emotional after my Aunt Janes funeral so I cried a bit on the phone, so when I finally got transferred to the right person he was the irate-person-calmer-downer.

He was pretty awesome, he gave us the installation free, gave us the first month free and sent a new cable installer. This guy was awesome. So now that we have those ammenities, I want my couch!

I had Renee call in pretending to be me, and we got the installation free. Oh the wonders of complaining.

Alright so moving is officially done! Thank goodness. It went pretty smoothly. On the Saturday my mom, sister and I went over to clean. Holy crap did we clean. Bleach and clorex galore. My mother is a force of nature when it comes to cleaning. Its something else.

On the actual day, we woke up at the crack of stupid. Moved all the stuff into the truck, drove over, ate some Tim's and then moved it all in. The later part took a lot less time, because we had developed this uncanny grace about the whole thing.

Since then its basically been taking boxes and unloading them. And it sounds kinda funny but my job at H&M has come in really handy. In the mornings at work we unload the totes of clothes and process them so they can be put onto the floor. So its basically the same thing really, now I just need to get rid of all those empty boxes.

I'm putting the final touches on my room... knick knacks, pictures, lighting etc. We had our first visitor yesterday. The best part is my dad found a wireless network so I don't even have to buy that. Well I might down the road if its a unreliable signal. The channels i'm getting on the TV are pretty much what I watch anyways, 6,7,8, etc. All the basics.

So I'm pretty much ready for visitors now.... hint hint. Hahaha

I bought a corset and a riding crop today. Heheheh

I realize that I haven't posted here in a really really long time.
Theres no way I can update you all on life in the past couple of months. So here is a summary:

1) I'm going to be a spinster for life.
2) Karma hates me and works in amusing ways. (relating to creepy people and role reversals)
3) My friends have shifted and at least now I know who my real friends are.
4) I want to get a new job.... like now. I hate H&M. I hate most of the people and its gossipy highschoolness.
5) I got a new tattoo (pictures to come once its healed)
6) I'm crushing on the artist, i want to hug him again. Swooonnn
7) I'm thinking of enrolling in a makeup artistry course (what do you guys think??) I mean photoshop and playing with makeup is one of my hobbies. And Special Effects Technician was one of my career options on Career Cruiser.
8) I went to Europe and had a blast seeing my Notts friends again, and swooning over Swedish boys.

So about a month and a half after the drama started, its come to an end. Thus ending my latest episode in the television show known as life. Much like Lost, it will be a while before another one pops up. Hurley episodes are rare jewels, and my episodes while less entertaining, are even rarer.

So I'm back to the work grind, the random nights out of debach and indulging my nerdy-ness.

On the horizon, however, I smell excitement. I say every year that 'this summer is going to be the best summer ever' and when uttered I usually believe it, or rather that I want to believe it. BUT this summer does look promising because I just seem to have more things going on. More friends to hang with, new milestones to reach and the ever present desire to take funny photos with friends.

Anyways seeing as I woke up at 4:45 this morning so that I could be at work for 6:45 and
then proceeded to work for 9 hours... I'm rather knackered. It wasn't all bad though, the highlights of my day included: amusing banter with slightly pervy manager, browsing for stuff I could buy but chose not to, reading Vice on the subway and seeing Penelope. Oh and on a side note about the movie.... its a little rant... for those interested. (Does not contain spoilers)

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So I had an interesting ride home on the subway. After work I got pizza with some co-workers, a spur the moment kind of thing really. So the little sister of one of my co-workers has a friend with her. I don't take much notice until we get to Eglinton station and the sisters go on the 34. Me.. I'm now alone with Billy the 16 year old who just so happens to get off at my exact stop. He also works at the Dominion near my house. Life is random. Anyways we have a nice chat about things. Lovely boy, oh if only I was 7 years younger. Hahaha

And now for your lj cutting pleasure

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so update on my back.

Today I can walk again, granted I'm hunched over like that dude from Hunchback of Notre Dame but still its a beginning. I went to a physio just down the road and they applied sweet sweet electrodes into my back along with a heating pad, followed by soft tissue massage. I feel ten times better, although I still have a lot to do.

I have to go two more times this week. Long story short, my core muscles need to get stronger to support my sucky back. So whether I like it or not I'm going to have to get abs and shit this summer.

Other then that I'm bored to tears which leaves me far to much time to do two of the following things a) eat (I think i've gained like a millions pounds) and b) think about boys... well one in particular really but still not a healthy preoccupation.

So drop me a line as i'm bored stiff. Literally I'm stiff cause my muscles are all sore and shit. Back to watching Dexter and Weeds.

wow life certainly took a strange and unexpected turn these past couple of weeks.

oh and I put my back outlife an invalid. Am bored to tears at the moment.

So a whole lot has happened in the last month. Half of which I can't even put into words. I'm so sick of it, i don't even want to rant.

However life is generally treating me well. How are things with people?